8 PM.... I’m on the down slide of a minor depression after seeing her today…She keeps asking for God to help her…You would think after all the years of going to Church faithfully and all these years and living a life of honesty and kindness, God would have mercy on this woman whom nearly devoted her life to him…Its no wonder that there are non-under standers and non-believers. I’m finding very hard to keep the faith as they say. I left after about a hour. She didn’t know I was there . I am really sad now….I need to go talk to somebody…….