I want to go somewhere and I don’t know where…I’m thinking Cape Cod but I don’t know the guy with the cottage anymore. I had a friend who had a cottage. He would let me use it almost anytime I wanted. He started using drugs and lost it. I haven’t seen him in a few years. I heard he died. Winter or fall at the Cape is beautiful and I miss it. We, my parents and the whole family as group went there when I was very young. Then I’m thinking, rent a cottage here on the ocean for the fall but I already live a mile away from the ocean….A few months ago I mentioned Italy now I’m not interested. Its like its too much trouble. Maybe it’s the pawing through my personal belongings by total strangers or the body searches. Is that just an excuse or is that really unacceptable to me? Going to Canada means I need a passport. I heard you have to wait for that…Mexico is out of the question but I’ll bet I could sneak in into that country. The thing is if you get caught they shoot you or lock you up forever in a Mexican prison. Who would want to go that Hell-hole anyway? How come they don’t do that here? I don’t know what to do? I want to go somewhere.